And Continue!

So the time has come to an end of me "taking a break from the book" I really wasn’t taking a "brake" I was just repeating the days we had already done. Ash is a good week or so ahead of me now so I don’t know what’s coming and neither does she. Today's dare could not have come on a better day! Here is the quote and explanation for today.

"He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he who rules his spirit, than he who captures a city."

-Proverbs 16:32

Choose today to react to tough circumstances in your marriage in loving ways instead of with irritation. Make a list of areas where you need to add margin to your schedule. Then list any wrong motivations that you need to release from your life.

The first part of todays is a little difficult for me, only because I don’t like being away from Ash for the night. Just because I feel I need to protect her, (and if you know her then you KNOW she can handle her own!) I have recently realized that the both of us need our "Fun" breaks every now and then, yeah I get out of the house every day but that’s not really the same. Correct me if I'm wrong please feel free! Yes it is a break from the kids being their selves but its still work. This is the reason I have been the way I have been with Ashleigh, the kids do have their days that nothing we say will stop them, and on those days I can see it on her face. So I kick her out of the house for a bit just to do something for her. Most the time she fights me on it that she doesn’t want to go, and others she can’t hit the door fast enough! Enough rambling and on to Today, Ash and a friend of hers wanted to go up North for the night to visit another one of their friends, and have a Ladies night. I have had a problem with this in the past only because of the little things that happen throughout the night that I am slowly letting go of. Such as being a slight bit controlling, I. E. having her call/text when she leaves to go out and leaves the bar or where ever she was, to asking her all the time who was going to be there and what they were going to do, or getting upset at some of the questionable pictures that come back the next day. All of which I can see in my eyes is trying to smother her which in reality is just going to cause problems. You can disagree with me all you want about that but that is the way I feel, and now that is what I am letting go of. I will slip up every now and again but that is to be expected, no one quits cold turkey on just one try. To wrap it up today I put my feelings to the back burner and put her first, by not getting an attitude that she was going but instead making the best out of it! I also am going to get time to myself and my video games! One other thing I didn’t even tell her to behave before she left LIKE I HAD ALWAYS DONE BEFOR!!!! Because I know in my heart that she will and am looking forward to her coming back to me in the morning! Now its time to make my list and give Ash the biggest surprise for when she gets back home tomorrow! Stay tuned to find out what it was and the reaction she displayed!! Have a great weekend.

-Justin
“Blessed, indeed, is the man who hears many gentle voices calling him daddy!”